Catch me when I fall.

2011 alreadyy?

2011-01-27T17:27:00.000+08:00

Hey, it’s 2011 yaw.

Life has been pretty sweet and lately. Of course, I have my down days but that is so Yesteryear!

It’s new year, new me. New job, new love. All brand new! Woohoo!

It’s my 6th day here at an offshore firm. It’s my honeymoon period. Nothing much to do. Pretty cool expat bosses I have, so far all seems well. Hope things will stay this way.
There’s too much happenings over the past year. Wow. Time really flies.
I wanna keep this updated la.. It looks so dead. Well, when I have more free time on hands then.

Gonna have din at Thai Express later! Can't wait!

XOXO

It's Hari Raya!

2010-09-21T13:10:00.005+08:00

My oh my, been months since I logged in.

and it's Hari Raya already.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

Catch-up post, Part I

2010-06-16T09:24:00.021+08:00

An extremely brief post with pics of the (recent) past! :)

This was the awaited dinner with the bestfriend on May 7th.

Oh well, SOMETHING ELSE happened on this very day too! Right Bestie??!
@ TGIF, Somerset 313

Family Time May 1st & 2nd

Dinner Treat from Zila on Apr 30th

@Shiraz, CQ

Drinks

@Crazy Elephant, CQ

Gorgeous in Pink Event on Mar 12th

@Bobby's, Chijmes

My welcome/Zila's Farewell lunch on Mar 12th

@Masala Hut, Penisula Plaza

Till I have the time again. Later!

It's been so long!

2010-06-13T19:38:00.013+08:00

What happened to my tagboard?

Anyway, A big hola!

It's been months and life has been as good as it was or shall i say it's better? Yes it is! but then again i never fail to put myself in a state where making choices are never easy.

Basically, I should think that life has been all rosy and nice.. where love life. erm, yes but... but then again. I shall say that it is sometimes kinda vague. But then again I shall say that I'm kinda happy now :) Oh fickle minded me. /:

It's Monday tomorrow! Grrr!

Working life has been all the same treating me very well, apart from being busy on raving mad days which happens everywhere. Been in this new job for about 3 months now and I shall say that I am truly thankful for being where I am now. Seems that my boss and I do make good buddies. Ha!

At the same time, I do miss (working with) my former boss a big bunch! I thought I was going to be in the previous firm for the longest time ever like till i hit 30 or something! But then, I've moved after feeling very much ancient there!

At this point of time, I am truly honoured that they wanna me to work for them back. But at the same time I am in daze and confused. It's been 3 long months since I left my 3(++)year old job, and to think that my former boss(es) wanna me back, it's like a big decision that I have to make. A real BIG one.

If I were to tell my boss (the current one) that I'm so gonna work for my ex boss. He'd probably faint before me. (Seriously!)

He seems way to nice for me to break his heart. (Really!)
Like always trying to make me happy by accomodating to my needs, despite being with the firm for sucha a short span of time.

That's him, looking deadly tired due to insufficient sleep.

I will so post up pics of the firm and I on a separate (catching up) post.

On the other hand, my ex boss is one undeniably awesome boss.

By the way, I managed to spend sometime with the ex boss on his birthday last week.

I hate to be making decisions.

Especially one as tough as this.

I need to make a decision. A tough one.

Argh.

Oh, I will so do lots of catch up soon! :)

It's the past.

2010-04-18T01:38:00.003+08:00

I was contemplating whether or not should I wish him.
and after much thought and consulting mum and bff, i decided that it's harmless afterall.
and so I did.

and I'm so in tears now. somehow, I'm so bothered and sad by his text reply. I can feel the sadness in the text, like how sad it is to 'congrats' the one that u thought u would end up marrying.

Everything is history now. It was dragging for the longest time ever. It took years but he finally realised that it's over.

for the past 8 years, this day was celebrated with me, how can I ever forget?

I really wish that he'll find his own happiness soon. Somehow, it bothers me thinking about everything.

Mad world.

I found that he used to blog , during the times when we were together.
A blog that I had never known.
A blog that creates much sadness and tears when I read it.
About how much he loves me.

I feel so much guilt now. But it's definitely a no turning back.
A big no-no.
I'm sure he'll find love and peace sometime soon.

This is the path I choose,
so let it be.
See where it takes me.

Take me to where all life is rosy and nice.

zzzz...

2010-04-07T15:48:00.000+08:00

I am too sleepy now.
I can barely open my eyes.
I am too full from the lunch at Pizza Hut. I had way too much. Waaay too much.
Oh gosh. My once flat tummy is growing and growing.
I can barely breathe.

I really do need to work out at least 3x weekly. But I never ever managed to.
I paid gym fees for the fun of paying I think.
I feel like I’m doing some sort of a charity deed for the gym I guess, like not workin out for the whole month of Feb and only goes to the gym once every fortnightly.
Like wtffff man.

Seriously, I gotta be more disciplined please.

Shall try harder this month.

Gotta hit 3x weekly!
Gotta hit 3x weekly!
Gotta hit 3x weekly!

Eh, I have a blog??

2010-04-06T10:56:00.005+08:00

It has been months, quite a long time indeed. HELLO!

I almost forgot I have a blog!

I am contemplating... If I should just scrap the idea of blogging. With all the gooood things happening, I hardly do have the time and interest to do so lately. I have no idea who reads this blog. Basically no one knows I have a blog. Wait a minute, not no one. I mean only a few oare aware i guess. Sorry for the lack of updates. My BFF has been asking me for the 100th time for updates and blah blah blah. But then again, you don’t have to read this blog to know what’s happening babe, you’re always updated on-the-go, wherever and whenever. And if you’re lucky, it’s live-telecast! :P

Well, I guess I will only do so when I want to. Like now, when I feel too.

I am so freaking cold now. I am so afraid & excited for tonight. I hope and I hope it will be good news. It’d better be. Great plans this week. (like it has never been for the past weeks?) DUH.

So tomorrow, is THE BFF dinner date! I am still wondering where to dine and chill. Somewhere extremely nice and cosy for hours and hours of girly-talk.
(Or shall we say baby-talk?) :P

Maybe now, I shall get my another BFF, Google, to help me with ‘where-to-dine-and-what-to-eat-tomorrow.’

I reckon I'll be really really hungry looking at the fooood.

Roaarrr!

very random photos.

2010-02-06T15:03:00.000+08:00

Very out of touch with this blog. Good things happening at one time. Thank God for all that! :)

These photos was saved in the draft folder weeks back, but just hasn't got the time to continue uploading the rest. so just gonna leave it halfway like this..

Some photos from a friend's farewell party around 3 weeks back. Fun good times with laughter, awesome food and free flow of drinks! Thanks for the invite!

One of the sundays few weeks back. Mum and baby gaga, she's always rara-ing. (sounds like she's singing bad romance). ha.

These random shots was taken last two sundays, i think.

Love this owl necklace to bits!

Reflections, welcomin 2010

2010-01-11T23:43:00.001+08:00

This comes a lil way too late. But i don't care, this is my Hello for Twenty Ten.

This is a time for reflection as well as celebration.
As I look back on the past year and all that has taken place in my life,
Remembering each experience for the good that has come of it

and for the knowledge I have gained.
Remembering the efforts I have made and the goals I have reached.
Remembering the love I have shared and the happiness I have brought.
Remembering the laughter, the joy, the hard work, and the tears.
And as I reflect on the past year, also be thinking of the new one to come,
(which has obviously made it's way through)

And it's all about how everything should fall into the right places on each journey, on every little step I will make.

Nye! with family dearest. so angel of me! cos I had an awesome pre-new year party with the girls (will sooo upload the photos next time) and due to that i had massive blisters attack which totally disallows me to jump on my feet on nye, so i had quite a quiet new year eve! Could have met YOU after the fireworks, but screwed the network jam! effing f*ckin screw our planssss! but we had one hell of a time on new year's day itself baby! we made it up and it was aawweesome well-spent time together. one hell of a hot-date heh.

she's just so shy

till the next time, i will so be on track again.

loving life at the moment.

ahhh, blissful beginning twenty ten.

as a matter of fact, the end of last year feels sooo right to end with.

now, it's new you, new me. well, is it?

xoxo

out for now.

busy loving you.

The short Trip Last Xmas.

2010-01-06T01:24:00.003+08:00

These photos are so yesteryear.
Ahhh, life has never been this busy man. was i busy in love?

Nevertheless, i'm gonna showcase it here anyway, the unglam shots of me, the good time with the vips in my life, the neverending scrumptious (embarassingly cheap) good meals we had and some of which we can never have it here, namely the very awesome-ly tehbotol, it's tea in a bottle and it's rocking my tastebuds big time and the all time favorite A&W and blah blah blah.

I just can never get enough of this!!

we even bought 2 cartons of this drink but in packets!

This is how tired i looked when we arrived on xmas eve
just before our seafood galore.

Xmas Fireworks @ midnight

Day 2
Love u Mummy!

nice...

a big hole in my (actually mum's) pocket for the hotel rooms

i (actually mum) paid 2 million ++ for the rooms hey

breakfast at the hotel restaurant

good morning Mum!

ooooh, this pancake is def betta than Mcd

Day 3

with my huggy mummybear

the ori nasi ayam penyet

the ori nasi ikan penyet

another type of tea in a bottle! equally good!

say hi to absolute bare face

Last Day
one way to the lounge

dun wanna miss out on the xmas tree

my craze for tehbotol

thumbs up!

I wanna get cartons and cartons of tehbotol when I'm there again. I so will come back again!

xoxo

2010 is at the door!

2009-12-31T17:16:00.009+08:00

Oh shucks, it's already the last day of 2009. I've yet to pen (blog em) down so many good things that has been happening so far!

Alright, it seems that time is not on my side now cos i just had too lil time at home, like even now i need to get ready, never mind about the massive blisters and aching feet, i will however still be out of the house and welcome 2010 with a big bang. Even if it means not partying in a club cos i 've already had way too much of that last night! it was pre-party towards 2010 people! so jumping on my feet again tonight seems like a NO GO baby. ohh, last night was just insane. i effing guarantee that it's gonna be jampacked and it's 10014584 times insane-R that last night, totally!

so fireworks for me tonight , a decent greetings to the new year:)

Since it's new year. new you, i mean new me. here's my new year new me resolution and for all to consider for themselves.

"Read less books. A little learning is a dangerous thing. Too much of it can really wreck your head.
Gain weight, at least 40 pounds. Didn't your mom always say you were bit skinny.

Cut down on exercise. Too much is bad for your health, it can even kill you.

Watch more TV. It's very educational. Catch up on all those programs you missed down the years.

Draw up a list of people who were nasty to you in the past year, get your own back on them in the next year!

Drink more. Wasn't it Benjamin Franklin who said, beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy. So be happy.

Eat more nice things like candy, Big Macs, popcorn and ice cream. Eat less crap like fresh fruit, vegetables and soy nuts.

Work less. Take it easy. All work and no play can make you a dull boy or girl.

Play more computer games. Scientists say they're good for you and improve your visual skills. But you always knew that.

Take up some worthwhile new habit, like smoking - it helps keep tobacco workers in jobs."

Nah, I'm just crapping! I'll post up proper 'new year, new me resolutions' soooon.
Cheers to all, let's welcome 2010 with a big bang!
My wishes for myself and allll in year 2010!

Great start for Jan,
Love for Feb,
Peace for march,
No worries for April
Fun for May,
Joy for June to Nov,
Happiness for Dec,
Have a lucky and wonderful 2010.

I'll butt out for now yaw. doll up time. :::)))
xoxoxo

blah blah.

2009-12-23T01:31:00.007+08:00

it has been the worst Sunday of all in year 2009 for me. i woke up feeling dizzy and nauseous. I threw up and passed out several times and got into bed and threw up again and again, and that happened at least about 12548554th times to be exact. I was throwing up the whole Sunday and Monday was kinda dizzy and the next thing i need is gastric attack! how awesome is that! so just imagine how baaad was that? Dear doc, 2 days MC ain't enough doc.
Even that, it's like 1 and a half day MC cos I juuuust HAD to come to office to clear some urgent irritating stuff and thankfully, i managed to escape slightly after noon.

urm, He, whom had been gone from my life for the longest time ever, is back. so it seems that he's not letting go and............. the rest is history. and I'm not sure what's next. oh sorry to the rest of urm... i guess i'll just keep it to myself. anyways i had the worst pedicure ever for year 2009. my toenails now looking damn fugly puh-lease.

and the best news i've got, photoshoot which is scheduled on 25 Dec is postponed till further notice. that's a hooorraay for me yea. i've not been to the gym since i've signed up with True fitness 3 weeks ago. i really need to workkkk out wef next week onwards to be prepared for any last min schedule...

i'll be away from xmas eve and be back on sunday noon! till then, daaa!

To alllllll my love, a ho ho ho Merry Xmas baby!

xoxo.

I wanna drive Audi! I wanna be slimmer! I wanna be with...

2009-12-17T18:10:00.007+08:00

Time flies pretty fast this week. Another weekend is coming!
Last weekend was just awesome.
Well, 12 Dec was spent differently this time.
It was not the same. It wasn’t like how ‘we’ used to wish each other…
Anyways, it was a good night out. I felt like a princess:))
My friend’s Audi is sooo cooooool please. I wanna drrrriiivvve that car!

We headed off to Tapas Tree for a late dinner and drinks. They served good tapas but not very good strawberry margarita, that's pretty disappointing. So I had my next glass at Cuba Libre, this time round, it was frozen mint and it was HEAVEN. The live band was cool too. They played latin/spanish kinda thang. We hung out at The Pump Room for a while and yes I must agree with my boss that the live band is sensational.

Clarke quay was somehow not as crazy like the usual, due to Zoukout I supposed. So yea, the leftovers whom probably can’t get tix or just don’t feel like going, were hanging around CQ (including myself!)

On a separate note, I was just informed that my next photoshoot will be on 25 Dec! a week from now? Wthhh!! I’m going for a trip! I really dunno how. I have not been on diet and hitting the gym lately (same old thing).

My main concern; will I fit into the costumes?

If only, NOW I am still like this.

Sighs.

Argggh, don't wanna think already!

i wanna look forward for a gooood friday tomorrow! Xmas party in the office baby! and after that! :)

it wasn't so easy but it wasn't that tough either.

my morning rants.

2009-12-08T11:11:00.003+08:00

The super gorgeous heel I bought yesterday was indeed a killer.
It cuts into my skin like nobody’s business. Rarr!
Anyways, I hope with the help of dear plasters, it helps my feet to still look ever so pretty in that gorgeous pair.

I am in no mood to work cos’ I am effing worried about my fitting tomorrow. Please make me fit into the costumes. I am so distracted with many things. Super goood exciting stuff that is. I can’t wait for the long awaited lunch with the best friend. It’s happening soon right. Sorry for the delay hun. Been busy like a superstar heh. Not! We’ll definitely do lunch on Thurs yaw! I’ve got ya your Xmas gift too!

Oh Friday baby please come fast, its girls-just-wanna-have-fun-night! Well, it does gonna be a great time catching up, looking good and a whole loads fun & laughter yea. Tentative plans were to have dinner at the flyer but I decided to meet up with the girls instead! So let’s just push that for another time I guess.

Pretty good plans coming ahead, oh don’t just everyone love December? To make things all the more merrier, my awesome boss has declared that we’re closing on the eve of Xmas and NYE! How cool is that please? Aaaaaawwweeesomenesss! Now, it’s time to plan for a short getaway. I’ve already got invites yaw! For a short getaway is never a problem but I dun wanna create a stir or the wrong idea yea, so a deep thought to that please.

Okay, as much as i dun want to, I’ll have to get back to work now. Sighs.
Talk soon.

Cheers,
Glamdoll

Hey, it feels like signing off from an email.
Haa.

Let love find us.

2009-12-07T01:36:00.004+08:00

First thing first, the previous entry sounds ridiculously hilarious.

Here's a proper post.

Love is difficult to define. How do you avoid confusing it with infatuation or lust?

Love is much more than a risk, but is a risk that one can take and grasp and fall into a dark abyss or dig oneself a hole and only crawl back when you overcome your emotions.How can one truly define what love is? Not even an experienced person can truly grasp or explain love to its truest and deepest meaning. Its concepts are just a never ending story of an open book of experiences. But love does lie in one's heart, where memories are but shadows lingering in your soul.

Love is characterized by the desire to want good things for that person no matter what. And you're willing to work out your problems together. And you can hardly breathe when you're around them. Even though you may see them all the time or hardly ever, it's as if you get that rush of what you felt when you got your first kiss.

Sometimes I ponder why it’s so easy for men to think or even expressed that they have fallen for someone in an instant. On another hand, why are some men or rather a man so ignorant? I simply fail to comprehend that. Well, it seems that it’s hard to hold on when you aren’t sure of what you want in life. I simply feel that there’s no closure to what is going on right now. And I presumed that you love to let things hanging for like the longest time ever?

For now, I am not going to say much. I’m pretty sure you know how it was back then till where we had been so far. I have no idea how long you want things to keep hanging. Perhaps, you may think the exact damn thing that I’m thinking about you now. Well I dunno, I guess I’m done thinking.

As much as I don’t want to, but I’m almost letting go off my hand, but if you reach out, I’ll promise to hold tight. *shrugs & sighs*

On separate note, i personally feel that life is all about choosing what we want in life. It may seem fun, but at the end of the day it's about feeling right with that someone. Feeling right and over the moon for the longest time ever! Not just for a year or two and that's it. like fuck the whole idea of being together till eternity and love turns out to be something damn nasty and it's all about ego. No-no. that's wrong honey. Wake up!!!

Sometimes I dunno if i should be thankful, cry happy tears or just be pleased?

xoxo

Je ne suis pas céder. Même si je veux, c'est tellement.

2009-12-01T11:08:00.001+08:00

Je vive de rappeler comment nous avons donc follement amoureux. Ne pas vous souvenir ? Nous sommes allés à travers une série de la bataille d'être ensemble. Nous avons bataillé véritable être ensemble. Nous avons utilisé pour continue sur quoi. Qu'est-il arrivé maintenant à notre amour ?

Je me dis que je suis jamais va donner en ce moment. Je réfléchir si c'est ce que je veux vraiment. Je ne suis pas certain. J'ai utilisé pour vous assurer ainsi que de nous, mais pas plus. Tout est maintenant imprécise. Je peut être voir de nouvelles personnes, mais à l'arrière de moi, d'une certaine façon la pensée de vous toujours subsiste. Tous les souvenirs de nous est venue inondations à nouveau par le biais de mon esprit. J'ai envie relâchant, vraiment faire.

Sort laisser prendre choses sur son propre et c'est tout à vous et le sort. Je vais va être forte et ne va pas être inquiété plus. Je ne wanna soin. s'il y a nous, il doit être. mais si l'on n'est pas, qu'il soit ensuite.

Bien que nous avons utilisé pour le souhaitent, si les choses ne sont pas va travail out, il est inutile, que je suppose.

Il se trouve maintenant sur vous.

Je suis presque relâchant désactiver ma main maintenant. mais si vous atteignez, je vais tenir serré.

random rants.

2009-11-27T00:31:00.007+08:00

Every other day this week has been rather decent. Hitting the gym early of the week was all fun and just makes me wanna sign up with True Fitness!! (am still trying to decide if i should really sign up). Not forgetting that i've been shopping almost every other day this week and last weekend too! I should really learn to S-T-O-P to S-H-O-P.

By the way, i let the chance to fly with Qatar Airways a go, (if everything goes smoothly that is) I was extremely excited about it until i learnt that Qatar has a desert climate of hot summers and warm winters. mind you, in the summer, the temperature ranges between 25 and 46 degrees centrigrade. Apart from that, i'll be away, far far away from dear mum, (which will be the hardest part of all). So, yup, that was it, i don't bother waking up and be at the venue at 9.00 a.m. sharp last Sunday. (I gotta just shove that idea of ever flying i guess!)

Extreeeeeemly excited for a date as early as 9.00 a.m with Aniesa this coming Saturday! A longer weekend for me, till Monday! (Yessssaaaa!)

And i've got plans pretty much lined up for me next week and I'm thrilled!

Just one last thing, it's not that i don't care. I guess it's up to you on how you want to lay the cards now.

I'm done thinking.
I've no answers.
I'm clueless.

God,
Just show me what love is.
Was it love when it was with you?
Well i thought it was,
but make me believe if it still is.

Tell me.

now what?

2009-11-26T16:02:00.006+08:00

Remember those walls WE built

seems to be tumbling down.

[what happened to workin' it out?]

We've fell into this place

Where you ain't backin' down

And i ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...

Mum said: Don't need to waste your time.

2009-11-18T16:16:00.002+08:00

Mother knows best...

All in One Week.

2009-11-13T11:04:00.021+08:00

It has been a busy week with awesomeness events every other day (after hectic workday) since Monday. The neverending long walk on the sandy siloso beach was just crazy, with the boyfriend and his injured-infected leg. Not forgetting, we got lost after hours trying to find the chalet that we're heading to, which was Bobby's staff get~together party.

We were given wrong directions and were not given the right details and blah blah blah.

Thanks to the cabby for accepting 15 bucks only. (the cab fare has already escalates to 25++!!). Apparently, he don't accept nets and he said, 'it's okay lah, just give me how much you have.." I should have said I only have 5 bucks! Haiiiyaaah! Anyway, this uncle saved our lives from walking a thousand miles in the wee hours to get out of sentosa, we were so lucky to get a cab at that late hour (while i was yakking away like how far we'll have to walk out and almost broke down on my knees while the boyfriend was trying to calm me down and in a split second, i saw his red taxi!!!) Many thanks uncle Wong Tam Seng, taxi no. SHD 990B of Trans Cab for sending us home. I intend to write him a compliment letter. :)

Apart from that, Tuesday was dinner with a friend at Four Seasons Hotel. No input on that except that I thought the wild mushroom soup was excellent.

Wednesday, was sort of a shitty day for me, only the boyfriend and I know. Damnit. btw, i was on sick-ening leave on that day. let's forget about sucky wednesday now.

Moving on, Thursday, 12.11.2009, which was the most important day in my life for the year of 2009, which was last night, is my 2 years with my one and only and the only one for me. and i love him so much and i really really do. Time has permit us to be this long and I hope fate will let us be together for as long as we will be.

Happy 2 years with you honey.

12.11.2007
The reason why I put up this photo was because, this photo was taken exactly 2 years ago from where we are now. Nevermind about the quality of the photo, but it's the memories that matters. :)

During our early days of dating...

For some reason, I can't recall what happened during our first year. How could that possibly happened? (I'll try to refresh!)

Anyways, we didn't managed to snap any pics of us for our 2nd year. However, my boyfriend was such a darlin to send me to work and fetch me from my gala dinner and that's how we spend our 2 years. and not forgetting we had quite a rushing time for breakfast in the morning. So that was all for our 2 years. That's all cos i had to attend a gala dinner at IndoChine with the rest of the colleagues. A gala dinner which costs my boss 3000 bucks per table.

How I wished it wasn't on the same night! Sighs. Darling, I'm sure to make it up to you sometime soon okay darling.

So I'm not gonna say much about the Tropical Fiesta Gala Dinner 2009@IndoChine.

Let the photos speak for it-selves ;)

in random order.

The best course of the dinner.

It was an extragavant event for all of us. It was effing effing humid though. That 300 bucks per pax = 3000 bucks per table was urm..alright.. and we had fun dolling up and cam-whoring the whole time! So yea that's about it.

and thank YOU to my ever so adorable darling for fetching me.. I so love YOU! muacks!

2 years with you, here we are.

Do you know the relation between two eyes?

2009-11-04T13:12:00.002+08:00

1. They blink together.
2. They move together.
3. They cry together.
4. They see things together.
5. They sleep together.

They share a very deep bonded relationship.

However, when they (men) see a woman, one will wink and the other will not.

Moral of the story: Woman can break any kind of relationship!!!

Partay the night away @ New Asia Bar!

2009-11-02T00:51:00.011+08:00

My awesome Friday night.
Party with awesome people, great music,
the perfect longest gaze, that dance...
how i wished the night stood still and never ends!

new asia bar is just one awesome place to enjoy the night away and i'm sure i'll be back some nights again.

i know you want me.

There's only YOU.

2009-10-31T12:00:00.004+08:00

Darling,

Please don't get upset over the earlier post. James is just my client alright baby? I have my boss to confirm on that and also the girls in the office as my witnesses! (:

This is the one man i'm madly in love with.

love you now till...

James, you got my heart baby.

2009-10-30T17:27:00.002+08:00

He stole my heart when i first saw him. He smell as good as he looks. He got me smiling to myself and made my Friday goes boom boom pow.

I think I'm in love.

We fell apart?

2009-10-29T17:25:00.004+08:00

You are so close yet so far....

pretty upset.

How do we go about now?

What happened to BFF?

The awesome very pretty chic jacket.

2009-10-28T17:57:00.009+08:00

Here are random webshots of myself and a few shots with lizzy (the office colleague/the laughing buddy/partner when doing nonsense stuff together during office hours) (Lizzy, you'd know what i mean.) oh ya, so i'm showing off my new black & shiny new jacket which i bought during lunch. I fell in love instantly when i first saw it! it's the last lovely piece btw! lucky me! lizzy said that it looks like MJ's kinda thing.

So babey, with this black & shiny piece, i totally feel like a rockstar! not!

*very random*

This were randomly webshot yesterday. out of boredom!

so good bye folks, till time permits, i'll come here again. I'm running late for my rock concert.

Loves ya'all.

Peace.

Bride-To-Be-Not!

2009-10-25T17:14:00.004+08:00

So here are the bridal photos, the one that i tried pretty hard to lose weight but please see the end results. so not worth the torture.

These are not all though.

Anyway, the photos were published in Wedding & Lifestyle mag and it was launched on 22 October 09 at the Wedding & Lifestyle, Singapore expo. I was supposed to hop by over the weekend, but due to Dad being hospitalised, I didn't managed to.
So I guess I'll wait 3 weeks later to get it from shop vendors.

Not looking very pretty at all, weight problem is one big issue here and the make up is so not looking nice on me.

Dad's Bday Dinner/Flea/Fugly Biatch

2009-10-22T00:27:00.014+08:00

ok now, i want to sort of continue from where i was last night.

Dad's 41st

Yesterday was dad's 41st and we went to Siam Kitchen at Causeway Point, This restaurant lives true to its name. Bringing the local dishes of ancient Siam without compromising the taste and quality of the transition. By far Siam Kitchen serves the most a-roi (delicious in Thai) bowl of tom yam soup, or rather it has the same level of goodness from the one at Marriot Hotel. It has a respectable potency. There are plenty of condiments like spice leaves, lemongrass, ginger and chilli padi in the soup with 2 big prawns and it looks as potent as it tastes, which is very good, oh no, not just very good, but deliciously awesome! everyone of us were served with one good bowl each. We chose the package for 6 pax and we were very much delighted with the authentic taste of every dish! Service was excellent too! I'm sure am gonna be back again, for the tom yum soup that is!

Sawadee Ka.

What the Flea on 18 Oct 09

Next update, i did my 2nd flea @ Cairnhill CC on Sunday that it was as scorching hot as the previous one cos it's indoor! I'm gonna do another one real soon which is next month and I can't wait!

That's Rilla Melati btw, the celebrity :)

I hate the effing low quality of my once very super excellent olympus digicam!!! Apparently, it has been around for like more than 5 years or something and it's been not well taken of by the way. I really need to get a good-new-slim one soon.

Fugly annoying biatch
Next! a story of a crazy fugly big ass biatch early in the mornings just ain't a good start for my mornings! I saw her fugly fat ass this morning while i was waiting for the boyfriend to fetch to work, and she do not dare to look at me. It was disgustingly an awful sight to start my day early in the morning. What happened actually was, I was walking peaceful to the train station one morning which was last week, this fugly biatch made a remark about my shoes and how slow i was walking and was saying something 'as if I'm a newly bride walking down the aisle.' (she was talking to her brother, i think should be her bro ah, equally fat), that guy ignored her. I turned at her fugly big round face and boomz at her. I was fuming and it was all baaaaad. she was like; did i talk to you? I feel like throwing my heels at her fugly face. Damn, you are fucking talking ABOUT ME! and I mean what is your fucking problem???? I figured, these sort of people, probably are just pissed with their own miserable life and tend to pick on others and perhaps, patheticly feels that they achieved a sense of happiness by doing so? Does that even make sense? I dun understand you, you are not even a pleasant sight to begin with. and aren't you embarrased at your ownself? God, please help people of these sort. I seriously have no issues with fat people of whatsoever, cos I am no perfect angel and neither do i have a svelte stunning figure but just please, mind your own life or please carry a full lenght mirror wherever you may go, so that you will always be reminded that you aren't perfect at all and you does need help to fix yourself before you attempt to pick on others. Shameful. tsk tsk tsk.

By the way, it's disturbing to see her in the mornings (after the incident), be it, if I'm waiting for the train or while waiting for the boyfriend to fetch me at my place. Disturbing!!!

*pukes*

p.s. Please do not be offended by the contents of this entry as it was never my intention to criticise others, neither do i have any issues with people who are slightly bigger than me, but this woman is really too much!!

very random stuff, fun stuff!

2009-10-21T01:16:00.013+08:00

Life has been all fun and fun and fun and happening. anyways, I'm back with some random raya photos! although, it has been far too long, but i'm gonna put it up here anyway. well, i just gotta blame the card reader(s) for being faulty, missing and what not. a string of attitude of a moron. The card reader which finally works, which i've bought last evening almost gave me a heart attack when i thought it wasn't working, but thankfully it managed to co-operate with a little help from a colleague, Ed the Accounts Exec.

So here are random shots of the photos, not ALL though...

and of course, my hari raya was celebrated with much much love with beloved family and friends with colourful drinks, delectable dishes, and very sedap kuih-muih (cookies) from house to house which is the reason why I am gaining and NOT losing!!!

Anyway, i'm pretty excited with my new hair. as it can be seen here, something magical happened! it grew longggerrr!

I think i shall stop here cos there are just too many to remember or rather my mind is not functioning well cos I'm dead beat.

Oh before i sign off, here are a glimpse of random shots of my happening (recent) Friday night which caused my feet to hurt like hell, and oh ya not forgetting, leaving 'hideous scars' on my quite brand new gold heels from Guess. I swear that the next time i want to have real fun, I need to find cheap shoes! get my drift? hahahahaha!

Till then, my story shall not end here but it will continue to another free time yaw.

Good night!

*yawns

Somehow horoscope is saying the right thing.

2009-10-09T15:18:00.003+08:00

My Horoscope says;

You really have no idea what to do next, but don't despair, advice is on the way! You should put off making any big decision for a few days, and should be able to act with confidence at that point.

YOU.

2009-10-06T23:53:00.006+08:00

So, the end of a story is just a beginning of everything.

well, i've so much to say but perhaps i'll save it for another time. All i can say now is that...

I'm back from an awesome date with YOU, and i love YOU so very much.

Probably those misunderstandings were totally unnecessary.
Or probably it happened for a reason.
and i hope YOU deserve my trust.
(although i'm still quite doubtful)

GOD, i hope this is the best move for US. Show me the way.

p.s. I love that vespa! awesome!

Tell me how?

2009-10-02T15:49:00.008+08:00

I'm in a mood for nothing. I've pretty surprised with all the things that is happening at this very moment.

It's not that i want to believe what others are saying. I just want to hear nothing but the truth from you, no matter how hurtful it will be.

If you'd think that i have given up on us, No, i have not, but i almost did.

At this very moment, I'm contemplating.

As much as I want this, you're making me wanting to let go.

Where is all the promises?

Is this relationship that we've been fighting for going to end any soon? you decide.

What's the point of holding on, if there's no room for us to be any happier like those times that we've once cherished?

Did I...

waited for nothing?

counted the days for nothing?

faithful for nothing?

look forward for nothing?

Do you really want this?

Tell me.

Horoscope says it right again?

2009-10-01T10:01:00.004+08:00

My horoscope says;

"Do your homework today, then get busy with the next big thing! You need to listen to as many others as possible before making any big decisions, though, so seek input from all sides."

very accurate heh?

rants.

2009-09-30T01:51:00.004+08:00

I'm wasting my one and half hours' with this blardy Nokia Ovi Suite.
My middle finger to u asshole. Piece of shit!
Why was it damn easy that time? and now u're giving me u're fucked up attitude! dammit. I wanna upload earlier pics.............................! (Manhattan Fish was puuurfect!)

and for the past hour, he, who has been asking me out for a date for the umpteenth time, who is not afraid of rejections and feeling dejected, is trying his best to date me out for a dinner and movie and he can't wait for it? well well, this he, is definitely not someone from the past. I have a pretty big question mark on top of my head now. to ignore him again? and again? and again? By the way, am still attached or what? well, that's another big confusing question ???

i'm gonna sleep now...my leave is over. i bet i gotta long list of stuffs to do.

i read my horoscope for (tues & wed) which says something about a big conflict is going on and when egos are involved, anything is possible..Your love life is getting a little crazy today -- but thats not necessarily a bad thing! Everyone has to go through some similar issues in order to find what they're looking for, so advice isn't hard to come by.

hmmm? how accurate can that be?

Love is a battlefield.

2009-09-29T02:11:00.013+08:00

Loving someone is loving that someone
despite that person's flaws and weakness.

Love starts with a smile grows
with a kiss and ends with a tear.

When you are in love nothing matters
except that the other person is happy.

You fail to see the one who loves you standing right in front
as does he/she fail to see you love his/her in turn.
Don't wait to tell him/her because it might be to late then.

If he/she is the first thing you think of when you wake up,
the only thing you think of when you're awake,
and the last thing you think of before you go to bed,
then he/she is really somebody special.

You know you love someone when you
cannot put into words how they make you feel.

and love is something that will make you go crazy.

Just blabber it out.

2009-09-28T02:02:00.007+08:00

I wanted to upload photos of hari raya, but to great dismay, my card reader isn't working.

Instead, i have photos of the DIY bday card (that took me hours doing it till in the wee hours) that I've sent to him but to another great dismay, it got lost in the mail and so it NEVER got to him. perhaps it was just not meant to be.

Anyways, I'm not sure if i should still give a damn about this (bday card/collages of our photos) that was not meant to reach him. but i'm still gonna post it here since it was my effort that was put in.

Sis, also made a card for him.

sad case huh. Dammit. Lost in the effing mail!

Alright, now, apart from that sad case of the lost in the mail story, i've got 124892320 things that is happening or rather has happened. 1st of all, this entry was supposed to be a hari raya entry but I guess i'll do it another day when the photos are up. anyways, i had an awesome raya with my family. Love em all! my very so generous uncle gave sis and myself $500 each for our green packet a.k.a. angpow. Ka-ching! and so i shopped like nobody's business, did my nails, trim-and- treat (treatment) my hair and much much more.

Apart from that, i was so ever fickled about my resignation and decided to stay put at where I am now. I mean, this hesistant feeling has been there since sooo long, and yes at the same effing time, i've been wanting to get my ass out of where I am, but then again, there is so much hesitation in leaving and i really feel that 'I just can't go...' I really dunno how to effing explain this feeling. I guess i shall stop complaining about my current job and live with it since i'm so effing reluctant to leave. so, zip it.

And to you my bestfriend ever, Crystal McCall. I know u're effing mad at me, but i'm truly sorry. it was the hesitant feeling and it was just wasn't the right feeling...

My heart is feeling as heavy as my weight now, but i guess i'm not gonna say much here, or rather i'm not in the effing mood to blabber about it. I'm just gonna leave it as it is, and perhaps i shall resign to fate.

Timecheck, it's 2:42 AM. I'm not sleeping yet cos i'm on leave tmr and tues! And it's a darn good feelin'! I just thought i needa break man.

will there still be us?
let fate determines...

Negative thoughts?

2009-09-19T03:08:00.003+08:00

I'm not in the best mood now. I'm feeling sick to my stomach. the thought of it came flooding thru my mind earlier and i just can't help it but feels so troubled and just wanna end all these.

I wonder if he's faithful. Is he's out partying hard after his exams? or just whatever.

i hope you know your grounds and i am not wasting half of my life being faithful to you and always thinking about your well being. I hope i am not a fool for love. Please do not take me for granted.

Well, all this could possibly be my negative thoughts but i can't help it and have this sudden thinking.

Love is all about trust but then again, there's a saying, never trust anyone. (does that include your love ones? ~ I freaking have no idea!)

Dammit, why am i feeling so doubtful?

I'm feeling...

2009-09-17T12:38:00.008+08:00

I'm feeling the pressure to clear the work. I'm left with 3 days here.

(23rd will be my last.)

I'm feeling sick and depressed that my huge bday card with lots of our photos done up nicely in patchwork to the boyfriend hasn't reach him till todate. I've put lotsa effort in it and I was extremely excited and imagining how will he react upon receiving it, But pffft!

I'm feeling frustrated that I've spent hours in the late night trying to download songs to my hp but to great failure cos I cudn't figure out what the effing hell was going on.

Seriously, these is tremendous frustrations.

On a much happier note,

my dress for 1st day raya is readddaay. And it's very pretty. and so is sis's. I bought my raya shoes yesterday at Guess, it's studded gold leather to match my black & gold LV bag. I've got my accessories from Forever21 and i'm pretty sure that I've done all the shopping that i need for raya. So now, i just gotta wait to look very very very pretty with all the pretty stuffs on Sunday!

But then again, i'm feeling stress to the max now!

Random rants.

2009-09-16T11:10:00.014+08:00

Here are truckloads of random shots of my webcam sessions with the boyfriend, on different days. I have not been able to find the time to upload these until this morning, when i decided to clear unwanted folders/files on my desktop and i saw all of these.

Faces of us looking happy, bored, cheeky, lazy and all sorts of nonsense.

Alright, for now, I'm gonna really chiong to clear all my work since i'm leaving my current workplace, which is a sad and happy thing altogether. Seriously, It's kinda sad to leave after being here for about 3 years now. It was a tough, touch decision, but i hope that it's a good move afterall, in terms of career advancement.

And so, last evening was my last dinner with the firm. It was Ramadhan cum my farewell dinner at Furama Riverfront Hotel, Kintamani Indonesian Restaurant.

4 days left and I shall wave my goodbyes to Chinatown.

Shoot me if you can.

2009-09-11T00:20:00.016+08:00

Be prepared for truckloads of photos of me.

These were shot on August 24th, 2009.

I barely didn't make it for this shoot cos i was lazy and sleepy to even wake up at 6 a.m. The shoot was scheduled at 8 a.m. and i got a wake up sms at 7 a.m. from the photographer. and I sms-ed him back that I couldn't make it on time, but he said as long as i can be at Esplanade by 10 a.m., it should be alright. and so, i rushed to get reaaadddaaaaay, totally no time to get my hair done up nicely (as it can be seen here). It was soo last minute and if only i'd managed to be at the set at 8 a.m., i'd have more photos cos during the time when i was there, the sun was already up and it was kinda diff. to shoot under the hot sun.

Anyways, I'm not looking that fantastic in these photos cos I've yet to get a svelte figure, buuuttt, i'm trying to get back in shape!

*fat hope*

Btw, my next bridal shoot is coming up in Oct, which is a month away. I hope to shed alot of weight by then. I've yet to get hold of the earlier bridal shots. eeeexxxccciiitttedd for it!

Wished you were here on your bday.

2009-09-10T14:20:00.005+08:00

Today, the boyfriend turns 24.

Darling,
To you a very special person on this your birthday,
Thinking of you with love on this very day
and wishing you everything that brings you
happiness today and always.
To the world, you may be one person.
But to me, you are the world.
It's as easy to stay in love with you
as it was to fall in love.
"Happy Birthday my love!"
It is not being in love that makes me happy
but it is being in love with YOU that makes me happy.
With each year I love you more and more...
May you'll have the best of everything and your wishes come true,
Most of all, I give to you with honor my undying devotion and all my love.
I'm looking forward to celebrating many more birthdays to come,
with you and only you.

(how i'd wished you were here.....)

Since this year you are not here with me, i have no photos of you blowing a cake on your 24th.
Hence, i dug out from my picasa album and found photos of you and your girlfriend (with her hair that looks like a wig) on your 23rd.

*September 10th, 2008 @ Earl Swensen in vivocity.

Lots of love, hugs, and kisses.
from: Your one & only. *September 10th, 2008 @ Earl Swensen in vivocity.

A bunch of stories.

2009-09-09T02:21:00.006+08:00

I have been busy with shopping for raya and it's a damn good feeling to shop! I splurged on this very-gorgeous-classy LV sobe clutch bag which deeply enchants me and it's a no regret cos it's very pretty.

A lil intro about my new love.
Coating in shiny patent leather as well as textile lining with a striking LV signature in large golden brass letters. The polished golden brass pieces drive out the monochromatic drabness as well as pour freshness into the whole design and i bet it's gonna be a perfect accessory to match my outfit for raya!

So, weekends has always been awe-some. It will forever be. cos it's all about dining out, shop and unwind. And for the record, earlier this evening marks the 8th time we went to bazaar geylang. and i am so going to wear as little as possible with flip flops and bun my hair high up in the air the next time i'm there, cos it's effing humid and sticky and full of urrghhs.

On a stressful note, work has driven me to a verge of breaking down. I feel like puking thinking of the work that has to be done before i leave. and all that madness has to be done say in 2 weeks' time.

and finally the present for the boyfriend has reached him this afternoon! It's 2 days early though. This old man will be turning 24th on the 10th. I was worried sick that it might just get lost in the mail! but thanked god that i was worried for nothing.

Boyfriend, the reason why i bought you that winter jacket cos you have been complaining like a thousand times that it's freezing cold there right? I hope it helps!

Btw, mum chose that for YOU:)

I've got something to say to the boyfriend. it's 09.09.09. I remembered vividly what were said some months back or rather a year ago or so. I can't really recall when was it. But what was said came flashing back in my mind. I'm sure you do remember. But..... things aren't the way that was planned. I'm not sure what i'm feeling now.

*shrugs*

I hate slow computers and a thousand buts.

2009-09-02T00:22:00.003+08:00

I missed my lappy. and i'm not sure where the hell it is now.
I effing hate my desktop. oh no, this is the boyfriend's desktop.
So to the boyfriend;
I hate your desktop!!!! or is it the connection? whatever it is, it's effing slow and it's driving me nuts.

and i'm in confusion yet again. Another talk earlier, another half hearted moments.

I'd thought that the final decision has been made. But. But. But. and a thousand buts is running through my mind now.

so, what now?

Dear God, will U show me the way?

Make this the Best Move please.

2009-08-31T15:52:00.009+08:00

That's me and the boyfriend. Today. As in, now.

My heart is screaming; (totally unrelated to the boyfriend & I)

"My mind is blank as for now.

I hope that I've made the right choice.

The wise choice.

And this is the BEST move.
I couldn't make up my mind.

I have been confused for the past few days.
Things are gonna be different. A huge different.

It ain't easy making up my mind.

It's been almost 3 long years here.

And it's gonna end soon. say in less than a month from now.

Sometimes I wonder, I wanna leave, I so wanna to,

but at the same time, I wanna stay.

I truly appreciate U for wanting me to stay. I really do.
I truly appreciate the time you've spent talking to me for hours.

I will never forget that Friday, this morning, the expressions,

and everything else.

Anyways, everything has been said and done.

Just one thing I'm hoping for.

I hate regrets. So, Please, don't show up after I'd step outta here."

It wasn't easy. It wasn't easy at all.

I hope my boyfriend is like this contestant.

2009-08-26T23:58:00.003+08:00

I'm watching The Moment of Truth on channel 5 now and i'm tearing. The Moment of Truth is part game show, part True Confessions. It's riveting to watch as contestants answer very personal questions about themselves, obviously embarrassed or uncomfortable, and yet continue to push themselves to answer more to win a bigger purse. Contestants will win money by answering increasingly personal questions while being hooked up to a polygraph machine. If the polygraph registers an answer as "false," the contestant is finished and walks away with nothing.

So as for tonight's show, I'm touched by a couple of questions that was asked to the middle-aged guy.

One of which where the host was asking the man who was married to his wife for 30 years,

"Would you cheat on your wife if there isn't any way that she will find out?"

He shut his puffy eyes and paused before revealing his answer, which is a "No."

And that No is a truthful No! How sincere he is!

He then tells the host and the audiences that he was ever away from home for a number of years for work purposes, and he could have chose to 'play around' every weekend, BUT HE NEVER DID.

I dunno why, but it made me think of my boyfriend.

I hope YOU, my boyfriend, will be and will always be forever faithful, be it wherever you are.

Awesomeness.

2009-08-25T02:23:00.022+08:00

My weekend was an awesome one! totally awesome.

I want to shout out loud that I have a new black and shiny toy. After much consideration and also confusion, I settled down for N97 instead of the iphone 3Gs. Apparently Singtel was saying that the shipment will arrive in a month or two and that there hasn't been any confirmation on the exact date. I was thinking to buy it from handphone retailers for an export set but after weighing the pros and cons, since I've ever used iphone before. I'm sure it's gonna be more or less the same. So being the very impatient me, I simply can't bear to wait and settled down for N97, which is, by the way, the latest of the latest from Nokia. And i really wanted a very good hp and I heard good reviews about it. and true enough! The hinge is slick and yet rock solid, the display is crisp and bright, the camera is well protected. The 32GB integrated memory is awesome and with a 16GB card there is plenty of room to have fun with it. Plus I love touch screen phone and I'm pretty sure it's a good buy.

Here is the most important part, I have made a promise to myself that I will be using this hp for the longest time ever.
Thank you mummy! I love you!

Btw, my dad got the same hp as me. He chose the white and mine is black. and we exchange our stylus, so it pretty cool. So my black N97 with the white stylus and his white N97 with a black stylus.

I will not lose it, sell it or whatever! I'm so well known for not appreciating handphones. I even left my then brand new N76 in train while I was giggling away without realising that my hp was not in my pocket. And that was a present for my 21st bday from my then boyfriend. I still remembered vividly how I cried out loud in despair at the train station. I felt like a lifeless doll. my one and only video of my 21st bday which was recorded with that hp was gone forever. The best was when I sold my iphone to a friend who was at that point of time, was so desperate to get it for his mistress. Btw, that iphone was from my boyfriend. I shouldn't have sold it. He begged me! How could i not? Haiyaaah!

Just look at how happy I was when i got that iphone!

my dream phone then...
~17 April 2008~

When I got that N76 for my 21st ~ (lost it in the train!!!)

my dream phone then...
~31 July 2007~

Not to mention my other hp sad stories, kena robbed lah, lost em' while shopping lah and many suay stories of its kind. So, this time round, I will sew my current squeeze to my hand. I’m left to think, which hand will be the lucky one? Hahahahahahaha.

Enough of that hp stories, and so I shopped for a couple of dresses, and finally trimmed my so disobedient, unmanageable, uncontrollable, unruly hair!

And, I've collected these very pretty pairs which i've ordered online. They are so pretty like me! It means I looked like a shoe? No, that sound so wrong. Okay, they are just so pretty! But poor Lis that her pair aren't the right one. imagine this; both shoes are for the left feet? Totally wrong! the seller must have had a whole lot of orders for that to happen. Anyway, I bet you are loving or even sleeping with that black camel cage with the right one cos I'm sure the exchange has been done:)

Mine. The grey studded heels.

Lis's. The Black Camel Cage.

Mine. The Brown Camel Cage.

Alright, I had one of the most coolest and happiest weekend ever! It was just so exhilarating!

Buttttt, today wasn't really a good day at work. with the work that is piling up and .......................
I guess I shall say no more. I felt like running away. far faraway.

I went to River Island during lunch and wanted to get a pair of denim pants but i was spoilt for choice and i couldn't decide! I guess, i'll get it over the weekend then. another weekend of awesomeness is coming and I'm sure soooo excited for this saturday. Outdoor photoshoot.

Now, I'm dead beat. I'm back from the bazaar at Geylang like for the 3rd time in a row of 3 days. And my feet hurts like hell cos i was wearing the camel cage with the heels of 3 inch. I will never ever wear that again to Geylang bazaar ever. Mum bought me a very pretty blue baju for raya. Nice!

Boyfriend, U're gonna be back in less than a month now.

Well, he won't be online till next Monday cos he'll be at the mountain for lessons on diving at the lake...

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Before he left earlier, while he's packing...

I'll pray for your safety okay sayang.
Good night, or rather good morning.

101157424301 on my mind.

2009-08-19T17:15:00.004+08:00

Head throbbing since hours ago. Work has been barmy mad and totally exasperating and the stuffs that needs to be done all came at one fell swoop and it sucks big time.

On a lighter note, I am all keyed up for the arrival of not one but two very beautiful pair of shoes that I bought online. It’s so pretty and I simply can’t wait to fit into em.

I am hoping to hear some good news soon but at the same time I can’t be too expectant, can i?

On another note on my love life that is very much tangled up which I would have thought that it ain’t knotty no more. In spite of everything, the past is back again.

Apparently, we are just friends. But it seems more than that to you. It hurts me so much to think that after what that has been said and done, you are still there. And you never fail to believe that we are no longer together.

I am so clueless.

I’m mentally drained.

Random.

2009-08-12T00:17:00.007+08:00

I had a damn shiok extra long leave. Firstly, i was on leave on the 6th and 7th (Thurs and Fri) plus weekend and PH on the 10th (Mon) plus I had 2 days MCs on 11th and 12th (Tues and Wed). Now, that makes a total count of 7 days of enjoying life without waking up in the morning(s) and rushing off to work in a mad daze and get frustrated with the inconsiderate kiasu people on board regardless of pregnant women, elderly, little kids, everyone that chiong in when the doors open, so as to achieve seats, sleep, rest and also squeeze in the slow moving train that lasted an hour for me to reach the office. Wait, before that, i have to wait impatiently for the very ancient-existing lift that makes my blood boil and my palms sweat and walked at a brisk pace, 145234524 times faster than my usual. and yeah so I skipped all that frustrations for 7 days!

But at the back of my mind, I can't help myself from worrying about the work that is piling up on my desk, the files that needs to be closed, to check on all the transactions on ALL files as the auditor will be coming on the 18th, which is just effing next TUESDAY! Oh gosh! I'm freaking out! So dear files, i'll be seeing you tomorrow and i hope you'll be nice.

Btw, the nasty fall on saturday left hideous scars on both my knees. Please heal fast. And my tummy, stop aching please.

Anyways, mum's bday on the 6th was the reason why i was on leave and it was celebrated with extra love. Extra love cos i handmade a bouquet of roses for her! I love you mama a.k.a bestfriend/sister/counsellor.

The boyfriend has gone missing again. The last we webcam(ed) was on Saturday, Aug 8th and that was it. We had a private websession. and it was crraazey. I hope to see the boyfriend soon. very soon please.

On a lighter note, i am xxxxccciiiittteeeddd to carry around a new handbag that I've got on Monday. Although that's not the exact handbag that i fancy, but I kinda like it. Thank YOU very very much.

Whatelse is on my mind? hmm... flea market. I am thinking to do a flea that is coming up on Aug 29th but I'm not sure of the crowd cos i think the place is quite secluded and there'll be no tables or chairs provided. Just the space for 47 bucks? not worth, not worth. so not worth! btw, i went to flea-tique at SAM on sunday and i can't help myself from buying few tops and a skirt. I need to do a flea soon. but I guess I'm gonna wait for a flea sometime after the fasting month and when the boyfriend is back! Fasting month is just a week away, next will be hari raya! and next, boyfriend will be back!

me and my never ending 'boyfriend will be back.' *sigh*
I am just missing him terribly. I dunno if i can tolerate this anymore.
Somehow it feels like a torture.
The waiting has transformed as an act of inflicting excruciating pain deep inside my tiny heart.

Omg, the emo side of me has come forth! i shall stand strong to survive this love with my love.

Where is my boyfriend?

2009-08-08T17:32:00.003+08:00

This morning, i fell down at the carpark and bruised both my knees and tore my brand new leggings that i bought 2 days ago. And I cried like a baby. Big baby. Cos it hurt like HELL!

Apart from that, I'm going nuts thinking where is my boyfriend? He hasn't been online since Wednesday, Aug 5th.
Where are you?

I called Tamar Cove this morning and to great disheartenment, the operator was unable to get him on the phone. And i left a msg but there wasn't any news since the last 4 hours.

HEY! guess what? he's ONLINE NOW!!

2009-08-04T01:05:00.038+08:00

I'm back from an awesome reunion dinner cum birthday treat from Karnan the big bear. It was a pleasurable time spent with this bunch of crazy people! :)

And here i am, after a couple of days of not having the time to blog. Here's my entry for what has happened during the last few days. My 23rd was celebrated with much much love and full of love and full of surprises and it was way beyond awesome! It all started with a bouquet of lilies and purple roses, a box of merci chocolates and a cute big bear from my darling boyfriend, far abroad in Australia. It was a sweet gesture honey. and after which i had another surprise, his bestfriend delivered a card and a Roxy purse to my office! Apparently, the boyfriend sent that package to his bestfriend and requested that the gift be delivered to me personally and that the flowers, chocs and bear were supposed to be delivered all at the one time but the delivery man came much earlier. But that doesnt matter, what matters, i've got them all before my bday and it was a pleasant surprise indeed. Thanks love.

And thanks to colleagues for the birthday cake! after i looked much disoriented, I left office after cutting the cake and rushed down to Central, Manhattan Fish Market like a mad woman with loads of stuff in hand to meet the bestfriend. We had an enjoyable dinner with me chatting away like there's no tomorrow. It seems that there's way too many stuff to share! And this darling bought me a charm bracelet from GUESS, which is oh so damn pretty! and it's SO ME please! I love it! and a frame with my name customised:) Oh! and I got this darling of mine, a miniature perfume from Elizabeth Arden with a very pretty flower box! I think she loves that too!

So at midnight sharp ~ 31 July 2009, my boyfriend called to wished me! oh God, just how much i miss him! a few minutes later, my dad called and sung me a bday song that lasted almost 2 minutes at least. Somehow it's damn funny.

The next morning, on the bday day itself, I was woken up with a surprise call. Well, somethings are better left unsaid. Whatever it was, i had a blast. It was way beyond what i expected. It was way too much of what i had expected. It was truly a nice gesture.

The night followed with a dinner with my dearest family. We had seafood galore! I totally threw the idea of dieting and whack-ed like nobody's business! My cam's battery went flat after i snapped these few pics!

Over the weekend, I attended wedding(s) lunch and dinner. Shopping for the tuna can(s) food. And meeting up with his bestfriend, to pass the stuff that the boyfriend had requested for. But to great dismay, I got a phonecall from the bestfriend that Australia are not able to accept any sort of FOOD to be delivered over. Like wtf please. So, it seems that the boyfriend got to wait for a month, 2 weeks and 5 days.

This woman really smiled alot and had a blasting 23rd, even though she feels so OLD!
Omg, i really do feel OLD.

and so, my 23rd ended with much much love! but just one thing or many things,
IF only, my dearest boyfriend wasn't away.
IF only, my boyfriend would kiss me 23 times at midnight just like when he does when i was 22 last year.
Oh.. That 22 kisses....
I miss YOU!

Ayam Brand Love Story

2009-07-28T14:15:00.003+08:00

sunday,

2009-07-26T17:52:00.006+08:00

On a lazy heavenly sunny sunday late noon, i'm just chatting away with who else but my boyfriend. and i'm just plain lazy to even think about going to work tomorrow.

On a happier note, it's four days work week yea, cos i will be on leave on Friday! and i just can't wait.

haiyahhhhh!

2009-07-26T02:47:00.005+08:00

I effing deleted pics of the self taken shots in my camera. i am so frustrated please. I wanted to delete unwanted pics but instead i ACCIDENTALLY DELETE ALL!

The pics that i effing deleted was the pics that was taken during the photoshoot this morning. the pics at the Bridal shoot. so it seems that i gotta wait for the official ones then.

so it's all about the shoot that happened today was the reason for all the dieting. and i was told to keep dieting. and she (the owner) wants to see progress when she sees me for the next shoot which is scheduled to be held in M'sia sometime in Oct. Progess as in ~ i need to ensure that I'll be much much slimmer by the next photoshoot.

Btw, i was beyond happy having to have found my long lost olympus camera. sis found it in the car and we were screaming when she found it behind the passenger seat in a small lil pocket. I have been searching high and low for it for the past months and there it were! gosh!

i shall say no more and i'm heading to bed right about now. my day started as early at 6 am and i'm dead beat now.

Good night.

Take a break. Take lots of snaps.

2009-07-24T14:28:00.010+08:00

Happy 26th Bday to Princess Crystal Mccall!!!

2009-07-23T11:06:00.005+08:00

Happy 26th Birthday to my dearest Best Friend for Life!

This day, being a joyous day for u, i 'm sure u gonna have loads of fun and may you'll be blessed with all the wonderful pretty things in life.

*p.s. I heart U. loads!
*p.s. I stole your pic:)

xoxo

your BFF.

Random stuff, All in one.

2009-07-22T14:15:00.003+08:00

*The story of a Super Gorgeous pair and blisters*

I bought this super gorgeous pair last weekend. It was love at first sight too. I went crazy looking at it. Trying it. And I even kept dreaming of it when I fell asleep. I was so super excited over it. So, I was looking forward to wear it on Monday. But……to my great disappointment, it’s freaking hurting my feet! But it’s not as bad as the Roxy pair. That Roxy pair was a disaster. I had blisters which look like tiny balloons on my feet. And I was limping when I got home last Friday. I wonder if I’ll be wearing it ever again. Such a waste. And the best thing ~ the blisters left marks on my feet. Wtf!!!!

Anyways, I’m still in love with this very gorgeous pair. I’m gonna let my feet rest for a few days before wearing it, most probably gonna have to carry lotsa plasters around with me in the hope that the plasters will save my feet. I think lotsa plasters is alright cos the it will be hidden =)

*The Swim*

Btw, I went swimming (Jurong Swimming Complex) last Sunday, with mum, dad & sis. And it was great fun! purely family bonding. Looking forward for our next swimming session. Probably, on National Day? Cos I had lotsa cool stuff happening almost every other weekend starting this Sat!

*The pretty Sourvenirs*

And..I so love this Fern pendant from NZ! My fav uncle went for a honeymoon in New Zealand and bought me & sis a very beautiful piece of souvenir each.

sis's ~ bracelet.

mine ~ necklace, fern pendant.

*The Bday ~ Uncle's*
Bought a cake right after work yesterday and rushed home to surprise this fav. uncle for his 49th bday. and yes he was truly surprised indeed. =)

*Work*
Has been insane. Preparing for trial is one thing that i hate most. Plus the never ending work and a number of new cases that has been coming in. Another thing about work that i hate most, Meetings! which will drag for an hour or so. Speaking of which, i have one later at 530 - 630 and only GOD knows what time the meeting ends! wth! But on a happier note, there's a firm's lunch tomorrow! Now that's the one thing i LOVE here :P Btw, my boss gonna end his bachelor days soon. His BIG day coming up on 09012010. He was asking me to scan a contract made with his wedding photographer, Lightedpixels. and recommended that i should consider them and check out their website, http://www.lightedpixels.com/. One of the best photographer in Singapore. My reaction? *Blank*. *No comment.*

*Nisa's Wedding on 12.07.09*

Here's the wedding pic of the bride (Nisa) and the groom (Faizal), Shera and myself.

*The Diet Plan*
I kindof stopped drinking the tea that makes me run to the loo every now and then. I ate Mcd and KFC for lunch on Mon and Tues. My jogging routine wasn't regular at all. I did jog on Mon though. planning to jog last night but was too lazy. Maybe, i shall jog tonight. It's 3 freaking days away from *The day* that i've been dieting for!
Btw, my lunch for today was soya beancurd. I did my pedi during lunch and it's very very pretty!=)

*The webcam date(yesterday)*
Lastly, it will not be complete, without my webcam date with this gundu bf. I think by now my blog is flooded with many shots of these kind, but i dun't care. I guess there'll be truckloads of it appearing on every other entry of mine. hahaha. . .

Whoa! I'm done for now.

Work is piling=(

what else?

2009-07-20T18:42:00.001+08:00

My web(date) with you on a friday (:

2009-07-17T17:45:00.007+08:00

he asked me my height lah, my waist lah, my shoe size lah. and thinks that i'm size 9.

we laughed when i told him "you think my feet is elephant's feet ah!"

He was pretty mad cos i was wearing a mini skirt. (he asked me to stand up, turn around. very kpo this man)

I was telling him that i've got a date tonight. :P

He was shocked to see my see thru top, thinking it's my bra! hahahahaha. it's a tank top underneath it my dear.

well well, he received the postcard (pic+lovenotes)

as it can be seen here, I'm drinking my choc milkshake yaw! :)

**************

Alright, thank GOD that the meeting is cancelled.

I'm leaving sooon.

To you my sayang, i shall webcam with you on mon alright:)

See you.

Finally it's the weekend!

Love that hurt me. Jog. Choc Milkshake.

2009-07-17T10:37:00.009+08:00

I am wearing this very pretty pair. I'm so in love with it but it's hurting my feet!

It was love at first sight. I bought it on monday, when i was on leave.

I'm so happy that i found you, but u've hurt me. how could you?!

I was waiting for today, to wear YOU! cos today is Friday and the only day i can wear you.

So I've been waiting this long ya' know!

I'm so disappointed in you.

Enough of that.

I went home early yesterday due to severe tummy discomfort.

(No webcam date yesterday.)

By evening, the pain went away, and i was fit to jog and sweat.

After the jog, mum wanted milkshake from Mcd. and upon hearing that,

i also want!!!

and....

i drank choc milkshake after my jog!

what does that supposed to mean?

the jog and the sweat was so futile.

but i just coudn't resist that choc milkshake.

and now thinking of it. I want it.

I'm craving for BK now. I saw the coupons this morning

and i so want to have that for lunch.

but i need to think over that. cos it will make a huge diff.

and 25th july is just a week away.

Damn.

Lunch. Slimming. Something magical & The Past.

2009-07-15T15:19:00.012+08:00

I had the most heaviest lunch so far, after a long time. Heavier than my all time favourite fast food lunch place, Mcdonalds'. Somehow I was craving for seafood aglio olio from Manhattan Fish Market on a Wednesday morning. And so I looked forward for the yummiest, most irresistible pasta for lunch and I went ahead with the call of my not so discipline appetite. It was beyond awesome. I remembered the first time I tried that awesome seafood aglio olio was with bf. And to which, I was hooked! I am the sorta person whom will at most times, has been loyal to fish n chips whenever I see it on the menus. But this time, time has change. My appetite has learnt to get bored with me.

Tonight, there shall be no dinner. Strictly no dinner at all.
And I’m anticipating for a jog that will last at least an hour or so.

Oh, I almost forgot. Something magical happened.
The jog that aches my bod the next morning,
The exercise that sweat the hell outta me,
The crash diet that makes me wanna cry for food,
The tea that made my tummy churned and churned, as if, some alien is eating the hell outta my intestine! and still does makes me go crazy without fail everyday for the past week)

helped incredulously!

My friends, next-door people (my neighbours around my office) and even my boss commented that I’ve slimmed down!

That means a lot to me.
25th July is nearing and it better turn out well.

My effort better be worthwhile.

And to end this entry of the day, I wanna add this, my bestfriend for life just called me. She told me about someone from my past, whom she had a chat with, last night. Instantaneously, memories & heartaches flooded through my mind.

Well, sometimes I feel that I am lost.

But sometimes, I do think that everything is alright.

Everywhere I go, places do remind me of you.
I do dream about you still,
But I think time has left us.

And never to be together again.
Perhaps that beautiful dream of you and me is long gone.
There will never be a chance of you and me again.
Whatever it may be, whatever the future may hold for us,
I just wished for one thing;
Don’t you ever forget us.

P/S: what we could have been now.

no webcam. a wedding. and what not.

2009-07-14T18:59:00.003+08:00

Sigh.
I left my webcam at home. I should have just left it at work last Friday.
And so our webcam date today was quite miserable, cos he can’t see me. I can only see him. Wth. I want him to see me also!
Btw, i'm kinda pissed now. well not just kinda. i'm so so pissed.

Anyways, our last webcam date was on Friday, just before he left for hospital.
Weekend, No. Cos no lappy and I have yet to collect my CPU.
We only managed to talk over the phone when he rang me up on Sunday right after I reached home from Nisa’s wedding lunch. Oh yup, her wedding lunch was quite a grand affair. I didn’t bring my camera along with me so I guess I gotta hang on to get a photo of the bride and groom.

I wished I could make it to your wedding dinner babe, but sorry I couldn’t. BUT I did made it for the wedding lunch yaw!

So, it comes pretty short and sweet for her to have tied the knot with her husband.
Not having to go through long complicated years together, not having to tear so much for all the so unneccessary heart aches. It all takes no less that 3 years I presumed. the courtship, the engagement, the grand planning, the grand wedding affair. And ta-dah, they are now married and happily enjoying their honeymoon unquestionably i bet. Of cos, a whole new beginning of a new life is ain't easy either, it's all about maintaining it well i guess.
I'm not reaching there as yet, but sure i will. someday.

Anyways, a meeting at my office just ended. And it’s effing 7 o’clock now. Wtf.

Recover soon!

2009-07-10T16:56:00.005+08:00

(Please ignore that face of mine!)

This was a while ago when he was getting ready to go to hospital :(

Apparently, the infection got worse. He's feeling weak :(

You should have just gone to see a doctor on the day that you were bitten honey :(

Hope you'll recover soon, real soon (:

Our webcam dates. longer than usual.

2009-07-10T14:14:00.024+08:00

These 2 days has been the longest time ever that we spend our date together. Our webcam date that is. Longer than usual. My darling was on medical leave for 2 days, due to that infectious nasty bite. SO, he was online for the whole 2 days. Awesomeness!

today

Finally, he received my postcard (our photo) + love notes today. I sent it out on 3rd July.

Meaning it took a week to reach him.

yesterday

I wished i had saved some screen-shot of ALL of our webcam dates. But i didn't! the past 3 days (Mon to Wed) ones were not saved! hrmph!

Our 1st webcam date & more to come!

2009-07-07T14:00:00.006+08:00

After 9 days of not seeing his face, after our webcam dates were postponed; due to silly things such as he hasn’t got his webcam. (Well, his bro-in-law promised to get for him one, but wasn't in time to get it before he left.)

So yea, he had to wait for the weekend to shop for one. And so on Sunday morning, I had a pleasant surprise to wake me up, he called me! After almost a week of not hearing his voice!!! He was so excited for our webcam date. BUT, lappy was not with me, and there’s goes our disappointment. So I promised him that I’ll get one that Sunday itself and that we’ll webcam date the next day which was oh so heavenly yesterday! Suddenly, it was a good start of the week! No Monday blues for me babey! I waited impatiently since morning, knowing that he’ll normally logs in somewhere around 2 p.m. SIN time. (Btw, our time difference between SIN & AUS (Tasmania) is about 2 hours.) BUT, he logs in later that usual yesterday cause he wasn’t well and he had diving lessons right before he went online. He got a big nasty bite on his leg and looked so pale. Omg, H1N1 cases in Australia soared up to 4568 todate, it worries the hell outta me. I really hope he does see a doctor soon and stop self-medicating! Just get well soon honey.

He sent me some cool pictures of him and fellow divers while they were out in the ocean.

I have no idea why is this pic of him is so tiny when i have chose the image size to be large?

Now, I’m waiting impatiently, again. :D

Megan Fox. Man? No way?

2009-06-30T13:26:00.008+08:00

I am so extremely shocked when my colleague told me that Megan Fox is a man! i shook my head in disbelief and google it! I found some article about it but i refused to believe it. I guess the website is a spoof. It sure is!

Bf and i watched 'Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen' on saturday, and she was fuming hot in it! seriously. How can this woman here be a man? Tell me? No way!

It's been 2 long days.

2009-06-29T19:18:00.008+08:00

It's been 2 days since he's gone. I was exhilarated when I received his text on sunday morning, his text to tell me that he has safely touched down in Australia, Tasmania, in the comfort of his room. I cried when i read his text. wth right?

Our first MSN was few hours ago while I was eating a watermelon and suddenly I saw a msg from him, i was like smiling from ear to ear and dumped that piece of fruit away. Haha. I just missed him so much. Oh God! I missing him like a child misses her blanket.

His bestfriend sent me this picture earlier. The last pic before he took off on that teary saturday. Sobs...

*imagined this, me, running with my heels in that dress, trying to find where was he at? I had to ask around, until there's this auntie who helped me with the directions;

Auntie: "Where are you gng?"

Me: (trying to catch my breath) "ah..departure hall, flight to Australia? Qantas?

Auntie: "ohh, it's just upstairs, be careful with your heels."

I feel as though i'm in some kind of drama, trying to stop someone before leaving the country. the ones always happens in sad love story. haha.

Alright, I'm leaving office soon. Gonna be having dinner with mum, dad & sis at Pastamania.

Loves.

miss u like crazy.

I'll wait.

2009-06-28T00:19:00.010+08:00

After many weeks of counting down to this very day, the day that i dreaded most, it came eventually. And there he goes, to achieve his dream. Holy Diver that is. My love will only be back 3 months later. I had a teary saturday, from breakfast with him to movie, (we watched Transformers 2, he's dying to watch that!) and to part with him when I was in the cab on my way home (I had to get home to change for a wedding) and lastly when we still managed to sent him off at the airport. I merely was not able to make it to see him off but luckily I or rather we were just in time. just before he checked in. That hug, that kiss, that smile. I'm so gonna miss all of that. I stood there while he waved and waved back and us. For a moment, I couldn't really move. His bestfriend looked and me and said that "Don't worry, he'll be fine." I froze there while hot tears streamed down my cheeks continuously. For now I am feeling quite alright. The last cry was in the car when i remembered vividly when we held hands before he left.

This being my first long distance r/s, I am hoping that we are strong enough to get things going. But i have to admit one thing; i worry too much. maybe it's just me. i have always been worrying on even the most slightest things. We've pledged our love for each other and may God be with us to go through times like this. and keep our love strong no matter how far we are. They said it's all about trust and faith. I've got to believe in that. I have to.

Dear, I hope you'll have a safe flight.
I'm gonna wait for your text when you're safely landed in Tasmania.
I'm gonna wait for our webcam session.
I'm gonna wait for you.
I'll wait.

my diver bf, 4th from left with the 'peace' sign.

The King of Pop is Dead.

2009-06-26T15:20:00.005+08:00

The news has been spread all over the world and almost everyone is feeling it. The lost of the King of Pop. Michael Jackson is dead.

I was extremely shock when I saw the news about MJ, the king of pop who dies at the age of 50. Mum being his fan was taken aback when I told her about MJ’s demise over the phone earlier. It’s pretty upsetting and thinking of how he had become over the years from his younger days when he was a popular music's premier all-around performer in the 1980s.

Sadly, as years went by, he became an increasingly freakish figure, a middle-aged man-child weirdly out of touch with grown-up life. His skin became lighter, his nose narrower, and he spoke in a breathy, girlish voice. I would have thought he would be way more better looking when he was truly himself before all the surgeries and skin lightening. And episode of his life continued with the accusation of plying a 13-year-old cancer survivor at Neverland in 2003, with alcohol and groping him, and of engaging in strange and inappropriate behavior with other children. The case followed years of rumors about the late MJ and young boys. In a TV documentary, he acknowledged sharing his bed with children, a practice he described as sweet and not at all sexual.

Anyways, I don’t know which is true or whatsoever but I am sympathetic about his life, everything that he went through to which of those that the media had brought to the attention of the public. The news that he converted to Islam was a shocker to me as I never thought that he would've chose Islam. I would think that it’s a wise choice that he had faith in this beautiful religion. Whatever it may be, now that he has transcended us, may he rest in peace. May he be blessed.

On another note to a woman who is quite selfless and heartless to the demise of MJ:

I hate you and I really do. The way you talk and everything about you, you self-seeker. Seriously, you’re a really mean person and incredulously lewd and it’s written all over your face. At this instance, I really feel like killing you. I am so imagining things right now. Anyways, I shall just ignore your nonsensical acts which disgust me.

On a totally totally sad note, tomorrow he will be flying off to Australia, and we are down to only tonight to spend the time together. I’m sure we’ll be having a great time. Dinner, and the next will be 3 months later. Movie, and the next will be 3 months later. Damn, it’s gonna be 3 freaking months without you!

'Drag me to hell' was one hell of a movie!

2009-06-17T00:28:00.004+08:00

We watched 'Drag me to hell' after such a stressful day at work just now. I simply loved it! I have to admit, the ending did fall short and was not very much as i predicted, i wanted a happy ending for Christine Brown but sadly she was dragged to hell still! Overall I had a lot of fun (the sreaming of course!) at this movie. Someof the scares we could see coming and made me jumped, there were plenty of surprises gooey enough to make me squirm and kept me tugging on him and hiding my face on his chest! and there's a twist of a comedy in between which makes it kinda interesting. Diabolically entertaining i must say. Awesome! I think this movie comes best after Slumdog Millionaire. The rest that i've watched did not made much of an impact that will make me blog about it. For instance, 'Blood' which we caught last week, failed miserably as a vampire story. Left us with a big question mark at the end of the show. wth. Anyways, we truly enjoyed the movie this evening and I guess, the next thriller movie to watch would be 'The Final Destination'.

11 days left with you.

An attempt to lose.

2009-06-16T10:34:00.002+08:00

Lately, I am on attempt to cut down my portion of meals or skipping meals but I failed miserably. Discipline please!

But, on a happier note, I am more disciplined on my exercise routine. I have been rather active on my new hobby. Been jogging A LOT lately and spending my mornings (weekends) / nights (weekdays) at the gym too. Last night was just a short exercise regime. 30 minutes, because of some freak. Anyways, I planned to jog on every alternate day at least. So it means tomorrow will be my next jogging session. Gonna be having dinner (a healthy one I hope) and movie with him tonight, and yup, we’re planning to jog together tomorrow. So yeah, I am so hoping I will see the upshot soon. soooon!

Flea-tique Pix!

2009-06-12T14:19:00.009+08:00

The Seller and her buyer

Presenting our stall!

In that crowded sunny day

I dun care the heat, i just wanna pose!

One Pose for the camera!

Edmund!

The next stall Neighbour - Fel

burnt.

tourist?

The shall owners are all sticky and exhausted!

showing off my one sided butterfly =)

Calling the sunny day off!
leaving 8Q!

***And The Flea ends, with much love***

At least 10kg down.

2009-06-04T15:51:00.003+08:00

I'm anticipating for 25 Jul 09. It's gonna come real fast before i know it's here. But first thing first, i needa loose at least 10kg please. Today is the real start. TODAY!

The HOT flea market.

2009-06-01T01:34:00.003+08:00

I'm back from the super heaty scorching hot flea. It's crazy. It's unbearable-ly hot. I had an uneven tan. how cool is that? It's totally off!! but overall, it was fun indeed. Mum, Dad, Sis and my 3 other dears worked in a team and really helped me allooot. =) and really thank you for that dears, i love you. dinner with you and my family was a nice one. I loved it! I'm upload-ing pix at FB. well will do it here someday when i'm free.

I'm exhausted!

Pop by 8Q for a day flea market!

2009-05-30T00:52:00.002+08:00

Calling all flea goers! It's happening later this morning, me and Larie gonna be selling away quite a number of our stuffs. Well it's our first flea, hope it turns out fine. I'm all set up for later. Did all the price tags and painted a name for our shop; the groovy stall. helped by my uncle who is an artist. it's beautifully hand painted and it's cool! I managed to snap his good artwork. To anyone, Let's make it a big big bang for the end of MAY in the Waterloo/Queen Street area(Side by side)! and find your good buys at friendly prices! Great way to spend your Sunday!

Flea-tique are listed on several mags like I-S and 8Days and likely ST life so hope there's alot of people do turn up tomorrow:D Hopefully it won't be too hot and we are able to sell off alot of things!

Our store 'banner':

The 'price-tags':

Kris Allen won American Idol season 8.

2009-05-21T13:20:00.012+08:00

this blog of mine is under-construction. haha. wth.

Anyways, I wanna congratulate Kris Allen with the boy-next-door image, for winning the coveted title. Oh well, i have not been following this season that much. But from the sources that I heard and read, this guy who was supposed to go home for many weeks back, actually took home the title and beat out the clear frontrunner.

Kris Allen = adorable looking + cool babyish face = cuteness! and he stole my heart away when he sang the acoustic "heartless" by Kanye West some two weeks back. he's damn adorable please. And just this morning while I was on my way to work, his version of Me and Mrs. Jones was played over the radio and boy, it was damn awesome! I was telling myself, I so wanna him to win. And yes he did :D He's probably not as popular as that gay. Heard he's a gay goth guy who the judges seemed to really like. Actually, I've seen pictures of him making out with his partner and it's like whaaat??? Adam Lambert = smiley-faced + black-haired man + dramatic, arched eyebrows = gay. whatever it is, I don't care about his popularity or the rockstar look he has and if he should took home the title or whatsover cos I dun favour him that much compared to the underdog, Kris Allen. The fact is, this clean-cut underdog defeated a glam-rocker seen as the overwhelming favorite. Kris Allen edged out Adam Lambert, a quirky, make-up-wearing actor-singer and once again Kris Allen won American Idol Season 8!!

Nothing is free ok?

2009-05-13T13:08:00.008+08:00

We went to NYSS at TBP last evening, I think it’s quite predictable that the beauty consultant will try their very best to make us sign up for a facial program with them. And true enough, she advised us to take up a program which costs 1000 bucks x 10 sessions which obviously we didn’t. First of all, I’m not having a very bad skin condition that I would want to burn a hole in my pocket for. Purpose for the visit to NYSS was because of a free trial of their Facial Spa Treatment which I thought, why not? after a long day at work afterall. But then again, nothing is free right? So that’s their sales strategy, call up customers for a free skin analysis and promoting/selling their facial programs for thousands of dollars. Anyways, we spent a total of about 3 hours there. Goodness! It felt as though we were trapped. Finally we got away when we repetitively said that we are not keen at all. This shall be a lesson learnt. I dun wanna any free trial of whatsoever unless I am keen about it and readily want to fork out for it. Nothing is free okay. I wondered if they must have blasphemed us all they could after we left. Head off for a late dinner at Mcd. And it was crazy. emotional (I was feeling emo out of the blue, like when he was munching away, like wth pls).

Anyways, it was fun afterall for our crazy date.

A year and a half. Here we are.

IF

2009-05-09T13:05:00.003+08:00

I wanted to post this one liner entry 2 days back (May 7th) but I haven't got the time to.

I wanna say that IF we are still, on that 7th is our 7th.

2009-05-05T16:38:00.004+08:00

I AIN'T TOLERATING THIS ANYMORE.
TOMORROW BETTER BE A GOOD ONE.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

2009-05-04T16:58:00.002+08:00

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

Enough money within her control to move out
And rent a place of her own,
Even if she never wants to or needs to...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .....

Something perfect to wear if the employer,
Or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..

A youth she's content to leave behind.

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

A past juicy enough that she's looking forward to
Retelling it in her old age....

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .....

A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

One friend who always makes her laugh... And one who lets her cry...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....

A good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

Eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
And a recipe for a meal,
That will make her guests feel honored...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...

A feeling of control over her destiny.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

How to fall in love without losing herself..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

How to quit a job,
Break up with a lover,
And confront a friend without;
Ruining the friendship...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

When to try harder... And WHEN TO WALK AWAY...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

That she can't change the length of her calves,
The width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

That her childhood may not have been perfect...but it's over...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

What she would and wouldn't do for love or more....

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
How to live alone... Even if she doesn't like it..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.. ..

Whom she can trust,
Whom she can't,
And why she shouldn't take it personally..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

Where to go...
Be it to her best friend's kitchen table..
Or a charming Inn in the woods...
When her soul needs soothing.

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...

What she can and can't accomplish in a day...
A month...and a year...

Long & tiring weekend!

2009-05-03T02:58:00.003+08:00

here I am in this new room, on this bed, i'm tryin my very best to adjust myself and adapt well to my surroundings. Cosy and nice.. and cold too. it's drizzlin now, i can hear the thuddin sound of the rain drop. Well, it has been a long weekend for me this week. I had 2 days MCs for wed & thurs plus it was Labour Day/May Day on Fri and weekend. Best! Buuuttt..i was indeed busy with the house shiftin' and the forever unpackin of my stuff and the neverendin cleanin. Sigh... i hope to get everything settled real soon. Got sometime for myself to get my toenails done in the evenin, and boy i feel good! after a long time! like when was the last time i had my pedi done? Deep red with a butterfly on my first toenail. My trademark, haha..
Am missin someone so much. He has been away to Pulau Dayang for his diving course for 4 days now, since thurs. Anyways, he'll be back tmr night. Oh i miss him!

I'm gonna curl up right about now cos it has been a long tirin day for me. and i can foresee a longer sunday later, more of organizing my stuffs, unpackin and all the neverending things to do! urgh!

2009-04-27T16:45:00.009+08:00

I realised that I have not been in touch with my blog for a while and no pix has been uploaded for a long while. I have not been having my camera with me for a long time too. I will so be on my fingers back again perhaps after next week once I am done with all the house shifting and everything else. I think the only recent ones that I have, was taken from my boss’s camera during Secretaries’ Lunch week, which was last week~21 April 2009 at an Indian Fusion Restaurant, Shalimar Palace, Singapore Flyer..I thought the food was enticing ~ 7/10. Ambience was 8/10. I would prolly come by with my love ones at night to enjoy the beautiful scenery. Or enjoy a romantic dinner while the scenic sun sets and disappear away beautifully…Soon ok!

Random ramblings.

2009-04-16T15:37:00.004+08:00

My eyes is as heavy as my weight I think. Hah. Timecheck: 3:32 p.m.
On a lazy Thursday. TGIF tomorrow. If only it’s Good Friday every Fridays. Isn’t it great? If only.

My morning was such a torment. But it lasted for about 10 mins or so. Damn annoying caller who has nothing to do but to spoil my morning. It’s been darn long time that I talked to some idiots pertaining to work matters over the phone damn angrily. I stomped in my boss’s room just when he was about less than 2 minutes in the office and complained to him about the idiot’s call. I was damn pissed that my voice was damn loud and I sounded sooo agitated! When I left his room, my colleagues were saying that I was damn loud even behind closed door! Wth. What a morning to begin with.

Anyway, lunch made me feel better. Surprise lunch meet-up. I feel like I’m so stuck with Mcdonald’s. and it’s bad. Daily Mcdonald’s meal causes weight gain. Major weight gain. Met a long time friend last night, whom commented that I’m FAT but pretty still. Wth please. FAT but pretty not. I need to DIET. I need to lose at least 10 kg. Achievable? I hope so ~ (but not doing anything about it?) Or maybe I need few months more and the weighing scale will grant me my wish? will do a check soon.

Moving on, i personally feel that the months passes ever so quickly and i'm worrying. I feel that i am travelling on this road for a long time. I wanna a carefree life. I so want it. Stress-free life. Having said that, not that I'm not loving life, I am grateful to the all the little things in life and am contented to be loved and having my mum around to be my all time listening ear and a shoulder to cry on and constantly hoping the best for me. I love you mum. And also my best ever friend, those long exchange of emails is the place I seek solace during those times when I'm slogging hard for work and just when i needa break and got my fingers to do the talking, haha. And I really need to meet her. It's been so long since we met! And to ex-bestest colleague, lunches has been great with you, expressing all i could and just pour out everything and anything and may more lunchdates to come! And to the men in my life. Hang in there whilst i make the choice. Omg. that sounds wrong. I can only put it in a sentence of 3 words ~ bizzare love triangle.

I wanna be cheerful as ever, enjoy my achievements as well as my plans. Be myself, especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass. Fickle as ever. Ok, i need to work on that. And in the midst of noisy confusion of life, gotta keep peace in my soul. and lastly, go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.

Be cheerful, Strive to be happy everyone!

2009-03-18T14:16:00.005+08:00

An attempt to lose at least 22 pounds so I decided to have banana milkshake for lunch today. And hopefully I can withstand to have just that for the rest of week and see the results soon. J I want my shape back please and grant my wish to fit back into most of my clothes when I was slimmer.

On a totally unrelated note, I am so upset over the conversation that I was having jus a while ago. I really fail to comprehend the reason why you have to choose to be working in another country for a period of 2 years and wth please. I am trying my best to understand you but do you understand me? Or are you even trying? How can I be away with the one I love for a period of 2 years and juz what might just happen then??? You told me not to think of whatever thoughts I have in mind and just have faith in you. As a matter of fact, how the hell am I supposed to feel secured and just wait? I really don’t have a thing in long distance r/s. It’s not my cup of tea. Yes, you may say there are couples out there who hv made it. But, there are just too many buts here ok. I want to be the one giving you my full support and be there whenever you need me to and vice-versa. And of coz, I want to share all my joy and laughter and everything with the one which is supposedly you. But how the hell is that gonna happen if you’re so far away? Trust is important. Yes indeed it is. But it really depends you see. You may find me totally unreasonable or whatsoever you may say. But if things are really gonna go that way, then I shall say no more. The choice is yours, and moreover, it’s your life, do what’s best for you, it’s all about you isn’t it?