I was contemplating whether or not should I wish him.
and after much thought and consulting mum and bff, i decided that it's harmless afterall.
and so I did.

and I'm so in tears now. somehow, I'm so bothered and sad by his text reply. I can feel the sadness in the text, like how sad it is to 'congrats' the one that u thought u would end up marrying.

Everything is history now. It was dragging for the longest time ever. It took years but he finally realised that it's over.

for the past 8 years, this day was celebrated with me, how can I ever forget?

I really wish that he'll find his own happiness soon. Somehow, it bothers me thinking about everything.

Mad world.

I found that he used to blog , during the times when we were together.
A blog that I had never known.
A blog that creates much sadness and tears when I read it.
About how much he loves me.

I feel so much guilt now. But it's definitely a no turning back.
A big no-no.
I'm sure he'll find love and peace sometime soon.

This is the path I choose,
so let it be.
See where it takes me.

Take me to where all life is rosy and nice.

I am too sleepy now.
I can barely open my eyes.
I am too full from the lunch at Pizza Hut. I had way too much. Waaay too much.
Oh gosh. My once flat tummy is growing and growing.
I can barely breathe.

I really do need to work out at least 3x weekly. But I never ever managed to.
I paid gym fees for the fun of paying I think.
I feel like I’m doing some sort of a charity deed for the gym I guess, like not workin out for the whole month of Feb and only goes to the gym once every fortnightly.
Like wtffff man.

Seriously, I gotta be more disciplined please.

Shall try harder this month.

Gotta hit 3x weekly!
Gotta hit 3x weekly!
Gotta hit 3x weekly!