I'm wasting my one and half hours' with this blardy Nokia Ovi Suite.
My middle finger to u asshole. Piece of shit!
Why was it damn easy that time? and now u're giving me u're fucked up attitude! dammit. I wanna upload earlier pics.............................! (Manhattan Fish was puuurfect!)


and for the past hour, he, who has been asking me out for a date for the umpteenth time, who is not afraid of rejections and feeling dejected, is trying his best to date me out for a dinner and movie and he can't wait for it? well well, this he, is definitely not someone from the past. I have a pretty big question mark on top of my head now. to ignore him again? and again? and again? By the way, am still attached or what? well, that's another big confusing question ???

i'm gonna sleep now...my leave is over. i bet i gotta long list of stuffs to do.

i read my horoscope for (tues & wed) which says something about a big conflict is going on and when egos are involved, anything is possible..Your love life is getting a little crazy today -- but thats not necessarily a bad thing! Everyone has to go through some similar issues in order to find what they're looking for, so advice isn't hard to come by.

hmmm? how accurate can that be?

I wanted to upload photos of hari raya, but to great dismay, my card reader isn't working.

Instead, i have photos of the DIY bday card (that took me hours doing it till in the wee hours) that I've sent to him but to another great dismay, it got lost in the mail and so it NEVER got to him. perhaps it was just not meant to be.

Anyways, I'm not sure if i should still give a damn about this (bday card/collages of our photos) that was not meant to reach him. but i'm still gonna post it here since it was my effort that was put in.

sad case huh. Dammit. Lost in the effing mail!

Alright, now, apart from that sad case of the lost in the mail story, i've got 124892320 things that is happening or rather has happened. 1st of all, this entry was supposed to be a hari raya entry but I guess i'll do it another day when the photos are up. anyways, i had an awesome raya with my family. Love em all! my very so generous uncle gave sis and myself $500 each for our green packet a.k.a. angpow. Ka-ching! and so i shopped like nobody's business, did my nails, trim-and- treat (treatment) my hair and much much more.

Apart from that, i was so ever fickled about my resignation and decided to stay put at where I am now. I mean, this hesistant feeling has been there since sooo long, and yes at the same effing time, i've been wanting to get my ass out of where I am, but then again, there is so much hesitation in leaving and i really feel that 'I just can't go...' I really dunno how to effing explain this feeling. I guess i shall stop complaining about my current job and live with it since i'm so effing reluctant to leave. so, zip it.

And to you my bestfriend ever, Crystal McCall. I know u're effing mad at me, but i'm truly sorry. it was the hesitant feeling and it was just wasn't the right feeling...

My heart is feeling as heavy as my weight now, but i guess i'm not gonna say much here, or rather i'm not in the effing mood to blabber about it. I'm just gonna leave it as it is, and perhaps i shall resign to fate.

Timecheck, it's 2:42 AM. I'm not sleeping yet cos i'm on leave tmr and tues! And it's a darn good feelin'! I just thought i needa break man.


will there still be us?
let fate determines...

I'm feeling the pressure to clear the work. I'm left with 3 days here.

(23rd will be my last.)

I'm feeling sick and depressed that my huge bday card with lots of our photos done up nicely in patchwork to the boyfriend hasn't reach him till todate. I've put lotsa effort in it and I was extremely excited and imagining how will he react upon receiving it, But pffft!

I'm feeling frustrated that I've spent hours in the late night trying to download songs to my hp but to great failure cos I cudn't figure out what the effing hell was going on.

Seriously, these is tremendous frustrations.

On a much happier note,

my dress for 1st day raya is readddaay. And it's very pretty. and so is sis's. I bought my raya shoes yesterday at Guess, it's studded gold leather to match my black & gold LV bag. I've got my accessories from Forever21 and i'm pretty sure that I've done all the shopping that i need for raya. So now, i just gotta wait to look very very very pretty with all the pretty stuffs on Sunday!