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Wednesday, March 18

An attempt to lose at least 22 pounds so I decided to have banana milkshake for lunch today. And hopefully I can withstand to have just that for the rest of week and see the results soon. J I want my shape back please and grant my wish to fit back into most of my clothes when I was slimmer.

On a totally unrelated note, I am so upset over the conversation that I was having jus a while ago. I really fail to comprehend the reason why you have to choose to be working in another country for a period of 2 years and wth please. I am trying my best to understand you but do you understand me? Or are you even trying? How can I be away with the one I love for a period of 2 years and juz what might just happen then??? You told me not to think of whatever thoughts I have in mind and just have faith in you. As a matter of fact, how the hell am I supposed to feel secured and just wait? I really don’t have a thing in long distance r/s. It’s not my cup of tea. Yes, you may say there are couples out there who hv made it. But, there are just too many buts here ok. I want to be the one giving you my full support and be there whenever you need me to and vice-versa. And of coz, I want to share all my joy and laughter and everything with the one which is supposedly you. But how the hell is that gonna happen if you’re so far away? Trust is important. Yes indeed it is. But it really depends you see. You may find me totally unreasonable or whatsoever you may say. But if things are really gonna go that way, then I shall say no more. The choice is yours, and moreover, it’s your life, do what’s best for you, it’s all about you isn’t it?

my butterfly feeling flutters 2:16:00 PM




Tuesday, March 17
Awesome movie of the year vs Stupid movie of the decade

I somehow barely update on what's the happening of my weekends due to my very busy workin+lovelife. Some random post here. I was at Chijmes on Saturday (14 Mar), soccer match between Man U and Liverpool. Results 1-4. Liverpool fans went crazy after the game ended. My Saturday night were longer than usual as I headed to catch 'Slumdog Millionaire' with someone from the past. It was an awesome movie I must say. I'm not the sort who write about movies I've watched. but I simply love the storyline of this movie… I'm so gonna get the DVD and watch it again.

It’s about this young contestant named Jamal on the Indian version of
Who Wants to Be a Millionaire? (Kaun Banega Crorepati) hosted by Prem Kumar (Anil Kapoor) in which he was on the show and won 20,000,000 rupees. Jamal has made it to the final question, scheduled for the next day, but thanks to a tip-off from the host, the police are now accusing him of cheating, because the other possibilities, that he has a vast knowledge, or that he is very lucky, both seem unlikely.

Jamal then explains that, while at least the question about Bollywood superstar Amitabh Bachchan was very simple, he knew the answers of most questions by chance, because of things that happened in his life. This is conveyed in a series of flashbacks documenting the particulars of his childhood. This includes scenes of him obtaining Bachchan's autograph, the death of his mother during the Hindu anti-Muslim violence, rekindling the memory of the 1993 anti-Muslim attacks in Mumbai by Hindu nationalists in the slums,[7] and how he and his brother Salim befriend Latika (Freida Pinto) (he refers to Salim and himself as Athos and Porthos, and Latika as the third Musketeer.)

The children are eventually discovered by Maman (Ankur Vikal) while they live in the trash heaps. Maman is a gangster (a fact they do not actually know at the time they meet him) who "collects" street children so that he can ultimately train them to beg for money. Salim is groomed to become a part of Maman’s operation and is asked to bring Jamal to Maman in order to be blinded (which would improve his income potential as a singing beggar). Salim protects his brother, and the three children try to escape, but only Salim and Jamal are able to escape as Salim lets go of Latika's hand as she tries to board a train they are hopping while trying to escape. Latika is re-captured by Maman's organization and raised as a culturally talented prostitute whose virginity will fetch a high price.

The brothers eke out a living, traveling on top of trains, selling goods, pretending to be tour guides at the Taj Mahal, and picking pockets. Jamal eventually insists that they return to Mumbai since he wishes to locate Latika. When he finds her working as a dancer in a brothel, the brothers attempt to rescue her, but Maman intrudes, and in the resulting conflict Salim draws a gun and kills Maman. Salim then uses the fact that he killed Maman to obtain a job with Javed (Mahesh Manjrekar), a rival crime lord. Salim claims Latika as his own and when Jamal protests, Salim threatens to kill him and Latika intervenes, accepting her fate with Salim and breaking Jamal's heart.

Years later, Jamal has a position as a "chai-wallah" (a boy or young man who serves tea) at a call centre. When he is asked to cover for a co-worker for a couple of minutes, he searches the database for Salim and Latika. He gets in touch with Salim, who has become a high-ranking lieutenant in Javed’s organization. Jamal confronts a regretful Salim on tense terms. Salim invites Jamal to live with him and, after following Salim to Javed's house, he sees Latika living there. He talks his way in as the new chef and tries to convince Latika to leave. She rebuffs his advances, but he promises to be at the Chhatrapati Shivaji Terminus railway station every day at 5 p.m. for her. She tries to discourage him, but on the first day that Jamal waits there, Latika attempts to rendezvous with him, but is recaptured by Salim and Javed's men. One of the men then slashes her cheek with a knife, scarring her as Salim drives off, leaving Jamal with the onlooking crowd.

Jamal again loses contact with Latika when Javed moves to another house. In another attempt to find Latika, Jamal tries out for the popular game show because he knows that she will be watching. He makes it to the final question, despite the hostile attitude of the host who feeds Jamal a wrong answer during a break. At the end of the show, Jamal has one question left to win two crore, or 20 million rupees (£281,301, $388,275 U.S.), but the host calls the police and Jamal is taken into police custody, where he is tortured as the police attempt to learn how he, a simple "slumdog," could know the answers to so many questions. After Jamal tells his whole story, explaining how his life experiences coincidentally enabled him to know the answer to each question, the police inspector calls Jamal's explanation "bizarrely plausible" and, knowing he's not in it for the money, allows him to return to the show for the final question.

At Javed's safehouse, Latika watches the news coverage of Jamal's miraculous run on the show. Salim gives Latika his phone and the keys to his car. He urges her to run away and to "forgive him for what he has done". When Jamal uses his Phone-A-Friend lifeline to call Salim, Latika answers his phone and they reconnect. She does not know the answer to the final question either but, believing that "it is written", she tells Jamal in unsubtitled Hindi, "I'm yours" right before the phone connection is cut. Jamal guesses the correct answer (Aramis) to the question of the one Musketeer whose name they never learned, and wins the grand prize. Simultaneously, Salim is discovered to have helped Latika escape and allows himself to be killed in a bathtub full of money after shooting and killing Javed. Salim's last words are "God is great." Later that night, Jamal and Latika meet at the railway station and they share a kiss. It is then revealed that the correct answer to the opening question is: D) it is written, or implying that it is destiny. In a scene reminiscent of many Bollywood musicals, they then dance, along with dozens of bystanders and even the juvenile versions of themselves, in the train station during the end credits.


Yea, nice nice show it was. So we headed to Marina Barrage after the show ended. I simply love the ambience there and yea I wonder if 'we' gonna be spending time of that kind together often? That question is for me to go figure it out!

Okay, enough said of good things, good movie. The most stupidiest movie I've ever watched was last night - PUSH. Total waste of time. I was yawning throughout the whole time, and wth pls. Total rubbish/claptrap/baloney/drivel/tripe/waste of money!

*Coming Soon* is next that I shall watch!!!

my butterfly feeling flutters 5:35:00 PM




Love

Love will come find you
Just to remind you
Of who you are

Love
It will forsake you
Threaten to break you
Take what you got

Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
It could hurt you baby
But give it a lil try
See that's the
thing about love

Friends
Sometimes will blind you
Sneak up behind you
You can't give enough

Then life
It will embrace you
Totally amaze you
So you don't give up

Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
Sure it could hurt you baby

But give it a lil try
See that's the
thing about love

Tell me that
I am not the only one
that's going thru it all

Sometimes I
feel like i'm the
only one going
thru it all

my butterfly feeling flutters 5:31:00 PM




Monday, March 16

My Handbook 2009

Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about..
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy
in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past.
That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of
the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you
learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:

25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30.. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:

32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36.. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
40. Make life a meaningful one.

my butterfly feeling flutters 2:33:00 PM




Wednesday, March 11

It was a last minute plan. Somehow I felt kind of edgy, jumpy, anxious, worried and tense. There were feelings. I felt something; I knew he felt it too. It’s been so long that it has been this way. No closure and just left hanging. My heart raced on fast pace when I talked to him. And when he smiled, I felt sad. I am so sad indeed. For all that has come to pass, he is still there? Wanting to still meet up with me? What is it actually? Could we remain friends and not lovers for now till the end of time? Could we forget all the feelings we had for? Will it be okay for me to see him with someone else? Will it be alright for me to love him as a friend and will everything be okay? Are we better off as friends? Are we??? I dunno!!! It's kinda shitty when you dunno what's next and your vision is blurry. Or I shall just pretend that things are gonna happen naturally...? I need some balancing of the word maybe, cos there's a whole lot of maybes in my daily thoughts these days. This whole thing, those words, they get tangled up in lines in my head.

And yea, he told me that he misses me although he hate me so much for hurting him. What is that supposed to mean please?

my butterfly feeling flutters 2:23:00 PM




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