It’s been so long! Even hari raya have passed. Oh wells, I kept thinking of that one person so much that it hurts. Emotional breakdown totally. It’s so much different this time round for raya. I guess he felt it too. And sure he does, he told me so. I thought this is what I wanted? But why am I feeling the other way round now? Life’s strange. Love strangle and tangle my life. Haha. Wth. Nonetheless, I am happy to say that I am being love. But.. I ponder why it is something damn hard for me feel happy and just move forward with him. But I ain’t sure if I want to be with him now. Fickle me. And I just wonder if I will be breaking his heart and shatter his dreams too? Heart-breaker me. For now, I’m trying hard to forget but at times I dun wish to erase everything that has been sugar & spice and everything nice. That’s was what we were before all the episode of a love triangle begun.

In the interim, to let all ties loose, to unwind all the emotions complication that I have been experiencing, I guess I can’t be too hard on myself. I have to compel this –Live life nonchalantly, and my happy ending awaits me.